• Timecircleline@sh.itjust.works
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    2 months ago

    Scrolling Lemmy instead of reading the book that I’m pretty into. I’ve been staying up too late reading lately, and its not late yet, and so I could read now but inertia is keeping me doomscrolling

  • stembolts@programming.dev
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    2 months ago

    Doing
    I’m watching Travelers on Netflix after getting back from leg day at the gym. About to eat some pressure cooked chicken (tikki masala and tapatío as simmer sauce).

    Rather
    I suppose I’d rather be watching Travelers on Netflix after getting back from the gym… earlier, while stoned and hanging out with someone I was dating, but dating apps are the poo.

    Haha, 11p for me, not much variation available this time of night.

    Good show so far for SciFi lovers. Reminds me a bit of Fringe for some reason tho the storylines are nothing alike.

      • Mister Neon@lemmy.world
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        2 months ago

        Chances are low I’ll do that, I paint for myself. I like painting models since it is analog and I work on a computer all day. It’s an activity that I do for my own benefit thus I’m reluctant to share with the public for fear of losing that feeling of self fulfillment. I’m also a far better painter than a photographer.

        Edit: Your genestealers are coming along nicely.

  • u/lukmly013 💾 (lemmy.sdf.org)@lemmy.sdf.orgEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Learning.

    I am a lazy piece of shit.
    I’d like to learn some programming, morse code, perhaps another language as well.
    But I quickly loose any motivation. At least for the past 2 years. I do get some occasional bursts of motivation, but usually I often don’t feel like doing anything at all anymore. I wouldn’t even breathe if it wasn’t automatic.
    Preferably I’d be dead. I’d have 0 issues, create 0 issues, have no regrets. It would be better for everyone, myself included.

    • nomad@infosec.pub
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      2 months ago

      Get yourself checked your for adhs or similar executive functioning disorders. It’s the must frustrating thing in the world to want to do something and not being able to get into gear.

    • Mister Neon@lemmy.world
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      2 months ago

      Hey I’ve definitely been in your place before. What got me learning coding skills was motivation for a career change, a platform that worked for me (Udemy), and accepting my failed attempts. Small bursts of motivation are more than what most people have. Utilizing them when they come on are opportunities to get a lot done in short periods of time. Don’t dedicate yourself to paths that don’t appeal to you, half the fun is figuring out what kind things make you tick.

      As far as wanting to be dead, existentialism is always a painful bitch. Reading Marcus Aurelius’ Meditations helped me alot. It doesn’t take away pain, but can help cultivate core reasons for one’s actions. That helps with existing, at least for me.

      Don’t beat yourself up.

  • TropicalDingdong@lemmy.world
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    2 months ago

    I wish I was surfing but the sets are like, 10 ft faces. That’s way out of my weight class. So instead I’m still working.