I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Oh FFS don’t call be gay just for saying that, I’m not fucking gay. I’m saying that if I were a girl I would have sex with me, ME. Only because, yeah I’m a loser, but I’m not a bad person and I don’t care about someone’s hobbies. If I could pick a girl using a magic spell the last thing I would care is if she’s “interesting” or “quirky”. For me if she’s isn’t social that’s a plus.
If you care about someone, you pay attention and show interest anyway. I don’t give two shits about Taylor Swift, but I know SO much about it because my wife loves it, and I play along.
Isn’t that lying? You just said it, you don’t give a shit. I’m being 100 percent honest with this “imaginary other person”… But I guess people don’t care about honesty these days. I guess asking someone loving and me loving her back just for “us” without the need of being interesting is impossible.