I completely stopped caring about 2 years ago, I realized I was never going to do anything with my good look and that I will never get into a relationship in my life, so I just figured out “what’s the point then, I’m already invisible to women?” And I don’t care about my health tbh…
Since I don’t have kids or my own family I could just disappear and nothing would happen. No, I’m not thinking about extreme stuff to end my life, I just stopped caring and now eat a lot and drink.
If I’m going to be alone and feeling sad, at least let me eat something good and greasy. Still, I’m just 100 KG at 34 years old right now, just skinny fat… For now.
I know you don’t care, but I was in the same position as you. I gave up and tried to drown myself in food and alcohol.
Things can change. Even if you are 100% sure right now that they won’t. When they changed for me, my mind and body already had irreparable damage. My memory suffered from the alcohol, my body will forever look ugly from the rapid weight gain. No amount of working out can fix that.
What I am trying to say is: Even if you don’t believe in it, your attitude can change. Just like that, from one day to the next. Then you will regret your choices, but the damage is already done. Remember that.