It’s been a very long week. I’m glad it’s almost over, and I’ll have two rest days until next week starts. My depression got slightly worse due to someone unexpected coming back into my life, someone I thought I’d never talk to or hear from again. I was getting accustomed to no longer having this person around, and I realised I was doing much better without them. My anxiety was under control; I was making more gains in the gym than ever, girls(and guys!) started paying more attention to me whenever I went out, and I was finally trying out new hobbies!

Then, out of nowhere, four weeks ago or so, I got a message on my WhatsApp. Despite being in a much better place now, I engaged with them. I knew it was a bad idea from the get-go, but part of me was still clinging to the past, I suppose. Finally, I did what I should’ve done aeons ago: I closed our communication channels yesterday when they inevitably brought more drama into my life that I didn’t need. We’ve known each other for 22 years, and part of me will sorely miss them, but I think I’m much better off without them.

I’ve been training a lot and got into natural bodybuilding over the past few months. I finally found a coach that seems pretty good, and I’m hoping we can start training after the summer once I’m back from my parents’ place. Sadly, all of this has messed up my recovery as it has substantially increased my stress levels. Hopefully, it’ll all be back on track soon. Being an HSP makes this situation harder, but I think I’m better equipped now than ever. It’s only up from here! (I hope!)

Sorry for the wall of text. It’s been a very long week, and I suppose I needed to vent somewhere.

So what’s Noita’s appeal? I’ve tried getting into it several times, but it never clicked. It feels overly difficult, but not in a fun way. I’m sure I’m missing something, as this kind of game would be up my alley otherwise.

I do. I think it’s quite nice and I have them somewhat regularly. They’re not overpriced where I live, they’re about the same price of a normal latte at any other cafe. So technically not overpriced, but still expensive.

Edit: my ex-partner introduced me to it and she was a typical white woman from southern US. So there’s that.

Thank you! That really means a lot and I appreciate your encouragement!

Things have been somewhat more stable. My anxiety and depression seem to be somewhat under control although there are still the really bad days here and there. I’m slowly getting over severing ties with my best friend of 18 years and am slowly coming to the realisation that maybe it was all for the best. Otherwise, all is the same, gym, work, therapy, some light gaming and reading. Things will be okay.

Kagi is the only one that consistently gives me much better results than google. The fact that it’s not riddled with ads on the first page was a big incentive for me to give them some cash. It actually improved my productivity at work a whole lot. This actually made me think how shitty google has become when I was preferring results given by an error prone AI compared to just searching for it. Now with Kagi, I can actually find the stuff I’m looking for and only use AI in case I can’t find it there for some reason. Totally worth the monthly subscription for me.