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Ehh, surviving. It’s not bad but I feel like I should be doing better.

The toll of family drama/finances is getting to me and I’ve found myself spiraling into old habits. I keep reminding myself to not let it get to me. I’m hoping to move out and get an apartment near my university but… Well, of course it’s easier said than done.

I know that being a full-time student is like a full-time job, but I’m considering getting two part-time jobs just to save up. But with my two other extracurriculars, keeping up my social life, and sleep— yeah, I’ll burn out at this rate.

I just feel like there’s so much at stake, in both the short term and long term future, that I can’t sacrifice anything. I’m scared of getting something ‘wrong,’ but I know that no action is the worst action to take right now.

So that’s my long explanation as to why I shouldn’t be procrastinating and how I’m struggling with procrastination.

I dunno. Any tips on how to change my environment up a bit to keep my focus? Or something to keep me sane. So far the only safe space I have is my own room. ._.

(Driving is not really an option since I’m still practicing.)

Ah, I am planning on baking a tres leches cake though over the weekend. It’s something to shake things up.

Saving up. Getting a summer job has been harder than expected, especially since I thought I’d have my job over the summer… But I know it’s not the end of the world either. Just a little bummed out. Maybe I can still find something but I’m not holding my breath— at least I have a bit of money coming in from a design commission and selling off a phone.

Still reading. Picked up the book Haroun and the Sea of Stories. Studying and searching for UI and graphic design internships to take in the fall. Been practicing chess daily. (Not great at it but it’s fun.) Practicing driving. (Which is a whole other story I could get into…)

But right now I feel slow and antsy. I’m hoping something in life turns around soon… Atmosphere in my house feels too heavy. It’s a sleepy and hot summer.

I’m on my first book for the summer. A friend inspired me to get back into reading, and I forgot how fun it can be. c:

But the big news is summer break from uni ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧

It felt like two years in one. So much has happened, both good and bad, but right now I get to finally, finally decompress.

(But honestly, two days into this break and I got restless.)

I’m looking for work. Got laid off from my student job due to remote work budget cuts. It was a bummer, but I’m not too worried about getting a job for the summer.

I’m also studying for this startup project I’m volunteering with. The other designer left and uh, now I have the chance to be the design lead. For now I’ll take small steps because that is not a role I want to mess up. XD

Then there are my two clubs I need to meet up with throughout the summer.

In regards to more stereotypical summer fun stuff, I’ll be going to an anime convention with some friends in a couple months. It’ll be my first convention! Plus I get to meet a friend I haven’t seen in about five years.

And I might be going on an LA trip in August! ⌯’▾’⌯ We might be touring the Winchester Mystery House as well.

Still in uni, got a snow day. It was a nice change of pace since this month is gonna drive me crazy. I had to pull back from a couple activities because the graphic design portfolio admission deadline is in the beginning of March. (One activity was a part time job I really like— which is an ouch. But I’ll hopefully be able to pick it up again once this is all over, based on my supervisor…) The other one is my vice president position at a community service club, but the term is ending in a month, so it’s perfect timing.

Speaking of clubs, I’ve been trying to revive the AIGA club at my school, and we voted on board today. I became president through a unanimous vote. (☍◡⁰) it was not my intention at first, but no one was raising their hand to take the role… And even the faculty advisor said she was gonna call out my name if I didn’t raise my hand lol. I think I maybe, just maybe made a good impression since I’ve been creating the building blocks. And I was too dumb to realize that ppl would want me to lead since I was… already leading, I guess. 🫠 Haha whoops.

But I’m sure it’ll pay off. I’m a little nervous but also excited! Life is crazy right now but I hope everything ends well! (Because it would be even more awkward to not get into the design program when I’m the president of the design club ._.)